I just woke up. I had a dream tonight about my brother. I was looking through my old house and found a notebook in my bed. It was an old journal of mine talking about my birthday and how it usually ends up turning out wrong until someone comes through for me. The journal entry mentions my mother and brother. I believe I did write something like that when I was a young teenager. Anyway, taped under that note were two checks from my brother. One was 847$ I want to say and the other was 153$. I might have the numbers wrong. But that is what I saw, I think. This disturbed me. It has strange repercussions. It woke me after only 4 hours of sleep. I am so disquieted.
The repercussions suggest that his death was planned. How would he know that he would have to deliver a check to me ahead of time. Only if he knew that his wife would not. I know that it is just craziness on my part. My brother has been dead for two years. The ache is still there. I truly do feel as if a part of my spirit, my heart left with him.
Rising from the Ashes