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1 Corinthians 13:11 Translations

King James Version (KJV)

"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a [wo]man, I put away childish things. For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known." My birthday is coming up in 5 days. I will be 39 years old, and there is something about getting close to the midpoint of your life that makes you want to examine where you are and what you are doing. I feel as though I have lived as a child most of my life. This year has been beyond eventful. My mother almost bled to death in my arms, my fiance' of 15 years broke up with me but continues to live with me, and I stopped a behavior that I didn't recognize as an addiction, but now do. I am starting to see into my core, learning who I really am. I am not disappointed with what I have learned. I have learned to accept who I am. I have learned to become gentle with myself. I believe that I have finally started to learn to truly love myself. I have been a child, an innocent who didn't know any better and made the best decisions that she knew how to make. I have been so harsh towards that child--so judgemental. But now, I realize that there is always time to change, to grow, to become who I want to be. And that is no small thing. It seems that we so often get stuck in patterns, the realization that those patterns are changeable is a blessing--a hope.
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Interesting, heartbreaking, and at the end an uplifting post.

Your mention of getting stuck in a pattern reminded me of Mrs. Williams. She is a black lady who walks with a cane. She brings her grandson to school. He usually makes it into the building five minutes before she does. Every morning as she is walking toward me we have the same conversation. She starts.
"Good morning!"
"Good morning."
"How are you feeling this morning."
"I'm fine. How are you?"
"Blessed and highly favored."
"Have a good day."
"Okay and you be strong, be encouraged."


My hope for you as you embark on this new chapter in your life is to be strong, be encouraged.

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